03.06.95 - 04.10.22

Far from hugs, from birthdays, from holidays…joys we miss in life. A sacrifice to expand our own light? Does the journey of self discovery rejoin us with the joy of those we lost too soon and with the memories we wish we didn’t miss? A million what ifs, but none will allow for her bubble to pop up on my screen for a video call.

My purpose grew because of these three lights. One moment, I feel I should have been there. The next moment with tears streaming down my cheeks, there’s blowing wind in my face or a bright ray of sun in my eyes to remind me her love is there. This week is hard. Her love was a deep love, her wants and desires to be loved were even deeper.

Witnessing the cruelty of our American healthcare system through politics is one thing, fighting for policy for healthcare for all is one thing. Losing your family members, while that broken healthcare system pushes them processed trash for food and pharmaceutical medicines for healing…that is an entirely different thing. A mind numbing, heart breaking “thing”. Yet, our nation continues to push profits over the sound collaboration across fields to develop a system of health that leads with preventative care…that seems to be the one “thing” that is too much for anyone to care about.

We may not ever get there, to where Walmarts aren’t desired and when poverty doesn’t mean you’re stuck with processed food and limited healthcare, but why aren’t we all trying? Why does our society’s mental and physical health not take priority over all of these “things”?